Yesterday I was awaken early with a nudge from God to visit my grandmother in the nursing home. I knew that she was struggling after hearing my husband’s description of how she was doing the day before. I really wasn’t prepared for what I saw.
Meet my sweet grandma Willetta. She has been a special treasure to me for 36 years. She taught me so many things especially around the sewing machine and in the kitchen. Some of my best childhood memories exist in her little house down the street from mine.
About 2 1/2 years ago, God allowed us to live within a mile of each other again. I never dreamed that would happen. When we moved back to Oklahoma she moved into a nursing home about 1 mile from our home.
Her body has slowly weakened through the years but her mind has remained so strong. She would often struggle with why God would keep her alive. She didn’t feel like she was of much value and yet she impacted so many over the past 3 years by being a listening ear.
So when I arrived to the nursing home at 5:15 am yesterday morning. It was so difficult to for me to see her slumped in her bed unable to even wake up. So weak. I just knew that this would be her last day on earth.
Even though I have no desire for her to linger and suffer, my heart ached at the thought of losing her. No amount of mental preparation makes a loved one’s passing easier. Needless to say I was an emotional wreck.
She had consumed so little liquid over the past 3 days and didn’t seem to be able to swallow any more. She was so weak. At 6 am it was decided to order her a liquid pain medication because she could no longer take the pain pills.
I quickly called my dad and encouraged him to call his sister. I worked hard to rally the troops and get everyone in to say their goodbyes. I knew that she was unable to communicate with us but at least we could hug her and feel her warm, soft hands once more.
After about 3 hours and having most of the family gathered, I decided to head home and take a shower. You see this day was supposed to be filled with preparation because the biological grandmother of my adopted children was due to arrive at 4 pm at the airport. It had been 3 1/2 years since she last saw my sweet girls and everyone was so excited. How could a day be so bittersweet?!
I had called my cousin and invited her to bring her 2 and 5 year old daughters to my house so she too could say her goodbyes to Grandma. Although I had planned a day of cleaning I realized that my house didn’t need to be perfect, it needed to be filled with life and boy was it! Those 4 little girls brought so much laughter on an otherwise dreary day and my sweet husband was so good to take on the responsibility of these little ones so I could spend time at the nursing home.
Once I got the 4 girls fed and made sure my husband was ready for his task at hand (this is a funny story all on its own!), I headed to pick up lunch and go back to the nursing home. I was SHOCKED when I walked in the door. My grandma was sitting up and alert. She was taking water and beginning to visit with each one who walked in the room. She knew who everyone was. It was absolutely amazing! I was so thankful that everyone saw her earlier that day because I would have felt so bad otherwise to have called everyone together. If you had not seen her earlier that day, you wouldn’t have thought it to be her last!
We had so much fun yesterday afternoon. The room was filled with laughter and stories. It was truly a gift from God.
Since my Grandma appeared to be stable I decided to go with my family to pick up Nana. What an exciting moment. She looked so beautiful we didn’t even recognize her.
This was the way we remembered Nana. She was so sick when we first met her. In fact our first time to meet the girls (ages 2 and 3) she had to spend our whole visit in the hospital. Honestly, there were times we didn’t know if she would live.
Here is Nana at first glimpse of the girls. What a precious moment! And what a special ending to a special day!
Most would have thought of the beginning of my day as a terrible experience and would so ruin the other moments but as I reviewed the day I began to see how special my God truly is. He caused me to call my family together to celebrate with Grandma and then gave us her back even for a short moment. By having my concentration on my Grandma, I had no time to worry about Nana’s visit. You know normally having a relative of my adopted children come to my home after not seeing or communicating much over 3 1/2 years could be very stressful. God knew the best way to have me work through both experiences and the result was AMAZING!
By the way, they did not arrive to administer the pain medication until 9 pm last night! It took them that long to order the meds from across town. I feel like that too was a blessing, otherwise Grandma would never have awaken to speak to us.
At the very end of the day, my dad and Grandma were having a special time to visit. All the sudden she asked him “Why was everyone here today? It was nice to see them but seeing everyone made me think I died!” My dad’s response “Mom, we thought we were going to lose you today. If you still see us then know you are still alive, if you see dad, you are in heaven! ” 🙂
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